Nearly half 1 I say to them
that I don't hit first and ask questions later, this way of life is hard
but so far it has given me a safe passage,
the drugs is just 1 problem,
what they going to do about the pen?
Because picking that up has always been a habit/
bullies are trying to push me quick, still pussy whipped,
you think your words are slick
but here's a wake up call man,
the way you do it, YOU PUT IT SHIT!/
I can just see it now, my bag full of junk food
and me and Seden's conversations on the coach,
get away from all that I don't want to know and that is
enemies still trying to get close,
this pirate isn't sticking to the code/
depressed is thinking about what you haven't got,
but I'm getting up and making my way there
'cause unlike them I do give a fuck, the strimmer man
is scared to get out of his own area
he can just about make it to the shops/
I couldn't express how I'd feel if I had no pad,
yeah I am feeling SO BAD!
as I'm always completely calm their the ones getting mad,
can I say it'd be good to see the will
but at the same time I will really miss my dad?
I'm glad the others are getting jabbed, they might as well
just spend all day playing snap/
On point I am because I don't want to repeat myself
and show her shit, they'd always say a secret
666 has been stamped over this/
Another part of me is always thinking about Seden
making me a chocolate cake, eaiting it all
I've got none to waste, yeah
I'm surprised every morning I don't wake up screaming,
it's a phase I went through today/
If they want to know what's happening,
telling them it's exactly what I'm going to do,
when I'm not on drugs I'm not lost
I know exactly what I'm doing you fool!
it's not what, but it's who you know to get through,
they can stick with what alcoholic drink they want
I'll just keep sipping this orange juice,
it turns me into a different person
when I'm sitting there listening to his tunees,
writing things that I don't want to/

It made me smile when she said
that first day we met back up at the train station, in the taxi
and at hers she was always staring at me,
arguements are what they are, that doesn' mean she doesn't make me happy,
I know sometimes I am a little snappy
but somehow I've managed to survive with all the emotional blackmail
that they've thrown at me/
She is the bad student wearing a skirt, and I'm the teacher in the class see,
it's getting her in some way, my dick on your ass cheeks/
it's annoying but it doesn't say or mean shit, we've come through so much
and I don't know what I'd do with her love,
how is she at her when she's turnt the music up?
she's my morning star when I write a love poem/
And it aint all, she fell in love with a person that went to the same school,
why am I the one to live with all this pain for?/
That lonely road of yours doesn't have to be so lonely,
home is feeling like you've always known me,
but I guess the blue prints to reality never told you
that I was coming back slowly/
Boys do it, I mean everyone can't help but keep letting other people down,
telling her now, it's a blow to the stomach
that'd kill those butterflies, other words it'd always knock her out/
I will continue to do this, no one is going to say I'm not allowed,
could he have been watching over her shout, all this time,
who's to say now I've decided to jump down from those clouds/
I even told Reemiss to look at you, I said that is my girl,
you can't really see what it was like for me growing up
even then still it was a strange world/
I can get over what I've been told, can think what they want,
I am in control there's no way you can sell your soul
your just out of control, you think it's sold?
telling me no other person could be this cold?/
clean as hell girl, I'm not that mold,
I've been known to have been able to get myself out of a black hole,
oopsy daisy I done it again
see sometimes she isn't giving me her heart to hold.
I'm a rolling stone that hasn't started to roll/
His life could be like the lovely bones,
so much for me she has shown, makes me not want to go
at it alone like those boys, wanking for the rest of my life
to put it in code, conversations on facebook,
touching the keyboard they hate us hitting,
we're sitting on a fortune!
I know she loves me and cares, she does alot for me
when all the rest send him funny, 1st girlfriend that did,
say was willing to lend him money/
So little time and so much to explain,
that's me doing her chicken noodles in the microwave
and she's still up play fighting trying to walk past
and giving me a quick jab every once in a while, she gets brave,
my ship has sailed, like the train gone off it's rails
I'm wanting to bail,
but I want us to go on for forever, and have our kids tell us the tale/
My mind, it's where I put you here, and why in ways
does it feel like we haven't been apart for 2 years?
I'm with those angels that you don't see in heaven,
what do you reckon!?
He has alot more to show, do you think they'd except him?/
He's been seeing and texting I haven't been talking to myself
and if she's confused at reading this, then it really does prove my point,
we just want my girl to make some more and for me to hear her noise,
feel as good as Alex going through his box of toys/
I always have to look at what I'm stepping in,,
everything will be alright it's going to be different,
no way are we friends with benefits,
it gets more and more real when I sent her this,
and it's my work, God forbids!
they aint censoring shit/
I hope it drives her crazy man, enemies have got me acting it
so I do shady,
for me it will get worse before it gets better,
I'll get through it, long as I know for whatever time we have
we are going to be together, it's a worry and a half maybe,
if they can't get to me, will they come and get her?