I don't know why I'm still here,
Battling each day with a new brand of fear,
Changing everything that I see,
Nothing is the same to me,
But I will keep pushing it forward,
I will make this work for me,
Survive by saving me,
You tried to do it for me,
Thanks, but that's not what I need,
What do I need?
I need to be freed.
Makes no sense,
Even to myself,
I strive to hold onto you,
I want to need you,
Love you,
Want you,
And yet all I need,
All I need,
Is to be freaking freed,
Don't understand how I made it,
How I am still breathing in,
Breathing out,
Living.
Can you call it that?
I'm surviving,
But dammit,
I'm only existing once more,
Dammit,
I will make it,
Save myself for this life,
Save myself for myself,
I fix all these broken people,
So why not me?
If I can fix you,
Why can't I fix me?
I will. I know I will.
I will,
I swear I will,
So sick of hurting myself,
Sacrificing myself for people's ideals,
I'm sick of it,
Too much of a forgotten shell,
I'm not the same,
I will never regain,
What I lost.
Loss.
Yeah, loss.
Loss of self,
It's what I look for,
I burn for the redemption,
The return of my inner self,
But where is it?
Why can't I fix myself?
I don't know why I'm still here,
Battling each day with a new brand of fear,
I need to fix it.
Fix me.
Forget it…
Why would it matter?
It's only myself.
Fix it.
Dammit.
Fix it.

i love it..I can totally relate in my own way at the moment..I love most of your poems so i expected it to be good...<3

why thankyou

i'm impressed that you think my stuff is worth a read.

ofcourse it is..