Laayla
06-19-2005, 02:27 AM
Graffitti on the walls, it's a feeling of complex
To show others how I feel while put under a hex
Anonymously I state the torture I go through
Unable to decide, sitting timid of what to do
Dirty concious keeps getting more worse than before
The point of where I end up willing to face gore
Placid within these walls, just uncanny do I turn
Take the lighter out to lit, it's painful when I burn
Shocking as it is, so expecting was this act
Getting confused of what is an opinion and a fact
Each word's a dagger to a neck, emotions do impact
Despite the disappointment of my ability to react
Locked inside my body, a failure at each attempt
It is all quite different from what I have dreamt
Repulsive are my looks, so revolting is my mind
Pure shame left to face from what I've come to find
Persuaded by the devil, so repellent do I feel
These repugnant secrets are meant for me to seal
The reflection of the mirror, on the other side I stand
So innocuous is my image, but still submissive at hand
In filth do I lay, trying to hide of what I've become
How gruesome to another and terrifying to some
Running blood down my wrist, once more now I try
To surrender to this life and finally succeed to die
But I'll always come undone, not 'cause it's a sin
This guilt inside my head will never let me win
Every lie that I spoke will leave me just so daunt
And every truth that I hid, will always come to haunt...
To show others how I feel while put under a hex
Anonymously I state the torture I go through
Unable to decide, sitting timid of what to do
Dirty concious keeps getting more worse than before
The point of where I end up willing to face gore
Placid within these walls, just uncanny do I turn
Take the lighter out to lit, it's painful when I burn
Shocking as it is, so expecting was this act
Getting confused of what is an opinion and a fact
Each word's a dagger to a neck, emotions do impact
Despite the disappointment of my ability to react
Locked inside my body, a failure at each attempt
It is all quite different from what I have dreamt
Repulsive are my looks, so revolting is my mind
Pure shame left to face from what I've come to find
Persuaded by the devil, so repellent do I feel
These repugnant secrets are meant for me to seal
The reflection of the mirror, on the other side I stand
So innocuous is my image, but still submissive at hand
In filth do I lay, trying to hide of what I've become
How gruesome to another and terrifying to some
Running blood down my wrist, once more now I try
To surrender to this life and finally succeed to die
But I'll always come undone, not 'cause it's a sin
This guilt inside my head will never let me win
Every lie that I spoke will leave me just so daunt
And every truth that I hid, will always come to haunt...