Urge to kill is rising
heart oozin with pain
I can't believe my heart
has gone through this again
Empty condolences just lie
and fill me deep with contempt
Stop telling me you care
when you're not even a friend
The pressure of my life
just fornicates with my soul
I guess that means I'm fucked,
I feel so damn raped in this hole
I want to die sometimes
fuck, almost every second at all
I want to just be in heaven
it's destined, I confess to it's call
I want to leave what is real
because real is mostly just fake
Fake friends, fake reason
life is just a fucking mistake
I love everything in this world
except everything and it hurts
So please listen to me break it down
as I sing you this verse

Chorus:
Please Lord Help me
I think I'm slipping
I just keep drifting away
I want to just die now
I want to just lie down
with my life slipping away

Please Lord forgive me
for suicidal traps and afflictions
But in my dreams I see
pure black in the visions
What does this mean?
I know I'm here for a reason
But do I really need
all thius fear and decievin'?
Please Lord, guide me though
the feelings I really feel
and no matter what they say
these feelings are really real
I've come so far in this time
to give up on my future dream
But I just think as far as my nine
with visions of shooting me
Those dreams are facetious
but I really DO desire to die
But I'm believin in Jesus
so I really just cry to the sky

Chorus:
Please Lord Help me
I think I'm slipping
I just keep drifting away
I want to just die now
I want to just lie down
with my life slipping away

Please Lord Help Me
put a stop to this trend
Sometimes I just want
to see my father again
And forgive me if I must
always sound like I'm dyin inside
I cry and I hide these feelings,
now I must try to confide
Music is the only escape
I think I'm manic depressive
I feel like I'm never controllin
my fate, filled with panican festive...
I'm depressed and elated
sometimes, actually often together
This life's testin my patience
I used to have a heart soft as a feather
'til I caved in with pain
the heart weathers the storm
It escaped the dishapeful disdain
now it'll never be torn
However my strength was in kind
acts I gave to everyone I could see
But you must think that I'm blind
I know you've been fuckin with me
However I can't be changed
from the person I am, cursed as a man
Who cares more for his fellow man
this his thirst for a chance
To be loved and accepted
not because of his deeds
not because of his necklace,
not even his love for his seeds
But because he gave his all
just so everyone could relate
in their own wondeful way
to what the fuck he would say
And I just want to write this
for everything you're going to see
So you'll never be quite this
insane and lonely as me
And if you really relate
to what I convey in this prayar
Ask God to help you out
with making it clear, don't forsake him in fear
Because if I didn't believe in God
I wouldn't be makin this rap
I'd be sittin in my kitchen
with my brains on my lap
It's goin' down...

Chorus:
Please Lord Help me
I think I'm slipping
I just keep drifting away
I want to just die now
I want to just lie down
with my life slipping away

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Um... I think it's really good! :)

Thanks........ :)

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This is really good Sexorcist. You have a lot of talent. Finally, someone that shares my views. I've been there and done that my friend, I will tell you (because I know poetry/lyrics are reflections of what we feel sometimes) it's not worth it. I died six times - more if you count the times I wasn't trying to... God wants me here for a reason and I think - from your lyrics showing your talent - that he wants you here too. So ultimately, you would just blow half your face off or something like that - you wouldn't be allowed to die either! You would end up horrifically scared though. It just ain't worth it my brothah!

Tammy

Yeah I know that more than anything. It's weird because alot of people find faith AFTER they were suicidal and it makes life better.But I've never really been suicidal. I've always hated life heh, but I just assumed living in pain was better than nothing.I used to be agnostic.Well anyway... after I started discovering things I was like "Hey, there's a better world for me outside of this world".Add that to the fact I see problems in the people and world I never noticed before...and everything just seems so evil and selfish.I know can be selfish too... but I just want to not deal with it anymore.I want to be in a better place. But I won't.I have a talent to make a difference in this world,plus people need me.I can't be that selfish.