most of the time
people dont know how i feel inside
it as if physically im growing
but inside, my emotions have died
my emotions flow
through the tip of my pen
i can look back on the past
and relive them again
i know what i
write is always true
the only thing is
i have to convince you
some people dont understand
all the things i've been through
when i was younger
i was abused
now that im older
i've picked up on how to use
my drug of choice
would have to be mary jane
it clears every bad thought
right out of my brain
nothing else in this world
can keep me from going insane
as long as im admitting
let me tell you more
i put a drill to heathers head
and held her to the floor
the first time i got drunk
was with your exhusband steve
i've smoked so much weed
at times, it's hard to breath
i still make money
selling dope on the streets
you're my biggest inspiration
to writing these beats
i've stolen thousands of dollars
worth of stuff
the love i was getting
was never enough
i took all the wrong paths
i could possibly take
btu i hold my composure
and never let myself break
until now that is
it's as if i just got
an eye full of jizz
i'm just pissed off
at everyone now
give me some reasons
to keep my gun from going pow
everyones mad
who use to be glad
i ask myself,
"do we all have it this bad?"
or am i just singled out
because i know what im about
i want so bad
to have someone to love
because all my life
the love was just shoved
i also think
that i need to be loved
there has been so much pain
and so much suffering
inside my soul
i need a new discovering

Even though some of that was sad, and like not happy...i still liked it a lot..because some people feel the same way (Even if its not exactly the same...they do) and its good you can express how u feel without being ashamed:) not that u should be ashamed but a lot of people would be afraid to post stuff like that cause they're afraid of how others will judge them.

thanx...well if thats how i feel at the time then i just write w/e's on my mind...y would i be afraid to post sumtin like that...its feelings...thats all poetry is...ya know...but thanx...i c uve been readin n postin a lot to my poems...